What do I do?

Been really troubled lately.

Not sure what to do. Not sure if I'm over-stressing myself. Not sure if I'm making the correct decisions.

Youngest sister coming over. The other sister still studying. For at least a year.

Daddy wants to buy a house. In my heart I think, "where comes the money??!!"

Interest rates going (has gone) up. Currency has been stronger than ever.

My salary is still the same. Who can I blame, it hasnt even been 6 months.

There will never be enough money for everyone and everything.

Not enough place to stay. Going back to old times of all siblings in a room.. *yaiks*

He's been really supportive, but at the same time often questions my priorities.

One side of responsibility makes me stay in Perth.

The other side of responsibility calls me back to Penang.

Close friends used to tell me I'm too young to worry about these sort of commitments. But at the same time, I feel great pressure to be able to show my commitment.

I feel like nobody truly understands what I expect myself to be able to do, and what I am expected of.

Starting to wonder if I'm really a "tail-less dog" who is contemplating abandoning her mother country because of "money" and "better lifestyle".

At the same time, if I abandon my family responsibility to fulfill the other responsibility, wouldnt I be a "tail-less dog" too?

How do people manage the obligations of family and love? I still cant find the answer.

Maybe it is my selfish desire to stay that is making life so difficult.

Because of my family I am sacrificing. Because of me, he has been sacrificing. But who is sacrificing for him???

Both sides pulling onto me. I'm trying to please both sides as much as I can.

One day, I have to choose one side to go to.. I hope I wont break hearts when the time comes.

And now, I just gotta keep working harder to make sure responsibilities are fulfilled and to keep that fine thread from breaking..

Thank you for being so supportive... I love you so much *muaks*